Rant Thread.

[Marina]

First, I'm sorry.

I don't know if you're religious or not, but pray to whatever God or force you believe in. If you don't like doing that sort of thing, I'd suggest doing something that either makes you happy or calms you down. Myself, I've never had that happen to me. So I'm sorry I can't be more helpful. Hope for best, expect the worst.

What's going on with your friend? Are you guys fighting? Are they leaving? It's hard to lose friends, but it's sometimes a good thing to let them go too.

[onlyaworkingtitle]

I'm not religious, but I'll never complain about people who are sending positive energy or whatever they want to call it. I've spent most of the day reading and waiting for news -- this would probably be a happier pastime if I wasn't reading the third Song of Ice and Fire book, in which... three? four? main characters have died during today's reading alone. SO MUCH DEATH. But a good book, so better than the alternative.

The friend's the sort who will never be the one to initiate contact -- if anyone wants to see her, ever, they have to be the one to pick up the phone. She's also recently gotten the habit of not answering. Or calling back. Or checking email, or facebook, or text messages, or any other sort of communication. And I was trying pretty desperately to reach her earlier this week, to no avail, so I'd pretty much given up (on reaching her, and on her in general). But her mom heard about my mom's hospital trip and told my friend, and she finally picked up the phone! I was so proud. Seriously, though, she needs to work on it.

Also, in case you were wondering, it turned out to be colitis -- a colon infection. Pretty unpleasant and surgeryful, but better than some things it could've been, and totally treatable. So... yay? I'll be going to the hospital tomorrow morning to hang out with her. Soooo yeah.

[Gina]

I am all sorts of frustrated and angry today, and most of it has to do with writing. I figured this was the most appropriate place to rant; I'm hoping at least one person on here will understand my writing woes.

Basically, I can't write. I don't know why, I just suck at it. I try so hard to write a good essay, and it just doesn't happen. I have asked for help so many times, and none of it helps. It doesn't help that one of my English teachers just doesn't like me. I feel like I'm annoying her just by asking for help. The other one is always more than happy to help me, but I feel bad because I keep asking the same questions. I've been to my school's writing center countless times, and I've asked all of the teachers in our English department. It's just not clicking with me. It's like my mind just has a block that prevents me from writing well. This isn't a good thing when I'm taking two English classes this year- especially since one is AP and one is writing-centered.

I've tried everything. I took the writing-centered class because I thought that constantly writing would help me get better at it, but it's not working. I write all the time when I'm at home, and it's still not improving. I've been on every writing website and I've read every book.
Nothing. Works.

I'm just getting so frustrated because I want to be an English teacher, but what good will I be if I can't write? How will I teach it? How will I even get through the college program?

The other reason it frustrates me so much is because I just get into these moods when I feel like I'm just not good at anything, and I'm just a waste of a life.

Like I've said before, it really doesn't help that I have a teacher who just doesn't like me. I honestly don't know why, and it bothers me a lot. I like to think that I don't give anyone a reason to not like me. This teacher is just that type of teacher who blatantly plays favorites. When you're in on the little club, life is great, but if you're on the outside looking in, it's pure misery. I probably sound like a drama queen, but that's really what it feels like. The way my brain works is to start picking apart everything that's wrong with me and feeling like crap about it whenever I get into a situation like this.

I just want to explode right now. I have an essay due Thursday and I don't even know where to start. It's a revision of a timed writing, and the original one is just so bad that I am literally embarrassed to even talk to the teacher right now.

Ugh. It felt pretty good to get that all off my chest.

[embonpoint]

Honestly? You don't have to be a great writer to teach English. I mean, if your grades in these classes are a lot worse than your average/other classes, then that's not going to help you get a job, but not being a great writer won't stop you.

[Marina]

Have you thought about something other than English as a major? I mean, I know you love the subject, but if it makes you so unhappy...