Post by Hanna on Jul 8, 2011 20:45:55 GMT -5
I guess I might just get this out of the way first. I'm not an English major, and not even close being one for a number of years. I'm actually just a high school student who one day, stumbled upon this site, and upon realizing what it was for, squealed like a fan-girl and have stuck with it ever since. In short, just really admire you guys. I hope that's okay.
All that aside, I have to admit that as much as I've enjoyed learning the subject throughout the past two years of my high school education, I'm starting to have some serious doubts about whether or not to pursue the subject as a major in college. For the most part I do wish to continue studying it beyond high school, (my passion for literature is proof enough), but there's this nagging fear in the back of my mind that I'll somehow fail to develop enough skill to succeed with it. I have no trouble comprehending the works that I read, it's just that when it comes to delving deeper into the meaning of the novels I almost always come up short. I can give you a plot summary of The Bell Jar, for example, but if you asked for an in-depth explanation of what the author's intent was, or to write a four page essay revolving around the themes of the story, I'd be at a loss. And although I do research to follow through with what I don't understand with the books I read, it makes me feel, I don't know...cheap? I just get really discouraged when I read literature and I don't fully grasp everything the author had to offer with it after I'm finished. It's like, geez, I'm sixteen and have been through years of Honors classes and I can't figure out what 1984 was trying to say to me without using a watered-down site like Sparknotes? I might just be being too hard on myself here, but I can't help how I feel about this.
Plus, I've been accepted for AP English for the next school year, and that's really got me on edge. Everyone who applied was required to write an essay that would determine whether you got in or not, and somehow I got accepted. I'm completely grateful for that fact of course, but my paper was a mess. Formal writing is not a strong point of mine by any stretch of the imagination. I've tried to get extra help with this from my English teachers over the past years with this issue and they ended up being either "too busy" or appeared so irritated with the fact that I even asked such a thing of them I just retreated to reading the notes they left in margins of my papers. Most of the marks were grammar corrections. So besides the fact that I need to pay closer attention to my spelling and punctuation, I don't have much else to go on. I've also heard that the AP classes for my school are independent (as in with minimal teacher assistance), and involve numerous essays, all of which are graded the similar to the way they would be in college. I'm looking forward to all the challenges, but seeing as I struggle enough with fully understanding literature on my own and can barely piece together a decent essay, I'm a little scared.
How should I go about preparing myself for all this? Are there websites or books out there that could possibly help?
All that aside, I have to admit that as much as I've enjoyed learning the subject throughout the past two years of my high school education, I'm starting to have some serious doubts about whether or not to pursue the subject as a major in college. For the most part I do wish to continue studying it beyond high school, (my passion for literature is proof enough), but there's this nagging fear in the back of my mind that I'll somehow fail to develop enough skill to succeed with it. I have no trouble comprehending the works that I read, it's just that when it comes to delving deeper into the meaning of the novels I almost always come up short. I can give you a plot summary of The Bell Jar, for example, but if you asked for an in-depth explanation of what the author's intent was, or to write a four page essay revolving around the themes of the story, I'd be at a loss. And although I do research to follow through with what I don't understand with the books I read, it makes me feel, I don't know...cheap? I just get really discouraged when I read literature and I don't fully grasp everything the author had to offer with it after I'm finished. It's like, geez, I'm sixteen and have been through years of Honors classes and I can't figure out what 1984 was trying to say to me without using a watered-down site like Sparknotes? I might just be being too hard on myself here, but I can't help how I feel about this.
Plus, I've been accepted for AP English for the next school year, and that's really got me on edge. Everyone who applied was required to write an essay that would determine whether you got in or not, and somehow I got accepted. I'm completely grateful for that fact of course, but my paper was a mess. Formal writing is not a strong point of mine by any stretch of the imagination. I've tried to get extra help with this from my English teachers over the past years with this issue and they ended up being either "too busy" or appeared so irritated with the fact that I even asked such a thing of them I just retreated to reading the notes they left in margins of my papers. Most of the marks were grammar corrections. So besides the fact that I need to pay closer attention to my spelling and punctuation, I don't have much else to go on. I've also heard that the AP classes for my school are independent (as in with minimal teacher assistance), and involve numerous essays, all of which are graded the similar to the way they would be in college. I'm looking forward to all the challenges, but seeing as I struggle enough with fully understanding literature on my own and can barely piece together a decent essay, I'm a little scared.
How should I go about preparing myself for all this? Are there websites or books out there that could possibly help?